10:12 pm on 02-23-04
blood red wedding dress
Monday, come and gone practically. I was swamped at work today, I was tired at work today, and I came home, and I was just plain ol tired of work. I had quite a bit of studying to do tonight�and my brain just wasn�t working. I have assignments for both classes due on Thursday�blah blah blah.
So last night, I somehow started watching some documentary on john holmes? I think that�s who it was. But I am beginning to think that�s not his name�anyway, you know, the porn star with the big dick? He�s the short, hairy one. Well, let me tell you, he lives like a slob. I am sure he is raking in big cash and he�s driving some ford or something. Interesting is all I have to say.
I had several weird dreams last night. One of them really freaked me out. I found out in my dream that two people I knew had committee suicide. One was a girl I went to high school with who happened to be friends with my brother, and the other was a pregnant friend�it was so weird. I was crying hysterically in the dream, yelling �why? Why? �..and then I woke up. The weird thing was that my eyes were all watery. I wonder if I was crying in my sleep?
So the other dream was about benefits buddy and he was getting married to psycho girl as I wrote about recently. I don�t even know what this girl looks like, yet she was wearing a blood red wedding dress. It was strange, and that�s all I remember about that dream.
So I am assuming that the death dreams are my subconscious acting out. Thursday is M�s birthday�therefore it will be a sucky day. Well, I am least setting myself up for a sucky day. Most close friends know what this week is all about, and they�ve all said that if I need anything, to call. That�s what I like. I hate when people constantly bug me, asking me how I feel, am I doing ok, all that crap. Mainly it�s just one aunt and one cousin�.one day I�ll probably snap at them, but for now it�s usually in one ear and out the other.
I�ll be glad when this week is over. I�ll be glad when I get all my assignments for school done. I might take a half day Friday. I�ve been working late a lot, and/or coming in early�so I am due.
The band decided on a logo that they liked. So that�s pretty cool. I�m glad I was able to help them out.
So below and I have been emailing each other consistently throughout the day. Nothing big at all, just random one liner/short emails. He is hot..that�s for sure. But even though we hooked up before in a drunken stupor, I sometimes wonder if he�s thinking if I am being too nice or have some ulterior motive or something. My look on it is�whatever happened, happened. Blame it on the alcohol. He is a cool guy though.
So I have had two people ask me what I bought at the sex toy party the other night�None of your business�hehe. I explained to below today�you can�t just go to one of these parties, such as a candle, Tupperware, etc, and not buy something. It�s just plain ol rude not to purchase anything. Therefore I had to purchase something. Yea, that�s about it.